Romans 8:28 Revisited

It's my s/d's favorite verse and honestly, one of mine as well.  All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose.

God is way too good to me.

One of the many things that "got" to me during my conversation with my mom on Monday was her refusal to acknowledge our conversation over break.  When talking about after graduation, she wouldn't mention even the possibility of my vocation.

Later this week, however, an opportunity arose for me to say something nonchalantly in an e-mail.  Here's what I said (again, very nonchalantly):

And that all, of course, depends on what works out for me after graduation.  I still just don’t know.  I’m drawn in a couple different directions.  I’m still really considering the nun thing or missionary work.  In which case I’d of course want to come home first.  Or there’s still the thought of teaching.  In which case I would either come home or stay out here depending on the job market.  But I'm really starting to think that I have to at least try the nun thing.  I'm starting to feel more and more like that is what will make me happiest…

Anywho.  So there's still a lot up in the air.

I felt almost physically sick after sending it, but somehow knew it was an opportunity I was supposed to take.  I was very anxious during class, waiting so that I could go and see if she'd responded.  I half figured she wouldn't, or that she'd just ignore it.  I don't know.

When I got out of class I checked my e-mail and she had responded...  She said something in relation to something else I had written, and then this: If you do the Nun thing or missionary work- where does that take you, how does it work? Do you get any sort of pay while doing that?

I wasn't sure exactly how I wanted to respond to this, so I went to the chapel to pray about it.  I was again very nervous and anxious.  But almost immediately I was filled with peace and my prayer went elsewhere.

Later I checked my e-mail again and had another response from my mom, this time saying: If you decide to pursue a vocation with the Church, we totally support you.  I just have to get used to the no gran-babies (and I will :-) ) We want you to do what will make you happy.  

It went on... but...

Let's just say that this is second time I've cried extensively this week.  God is soooo good!!!!  I am still in shock!!!